What are the odds that I am pregnant? I mean really?
We used a condom
Test 1 was negative
Test 2 was negative
I don't 'feel' pregnant
But, I still haven't got my period and so there is still that 'what if' thing going on - the probability must be pretty close to zilch though.
I have been thinking about it a lot the last few days - as you do. Reading the New Zealand news page today I came across a headline about Abortions. This woman had 15 abortions and calls herself an abortion addict. I know it's a woman's choice and all but this just seems unnecessary. I have heard the procedure is like that for a D&C when you miscarry and if so then how the hell could you possibly get addicted to that?
Shit, I really hope I aren't pregnant because I am starting to doubt my ability to make the right decision for me at this time.
Anyway, on to our day.
Got all the house shit out of the way this morning and had done a lot of English prep stuff last night so Ryu and I headed out for a walk - up the way - to high tiger boys house. I had a bag of Marina's hand me downs as I cleaned out one of her drawers yesterday. Tiger Boy's mum is 36 weeks pregnant - She is taking meddy to stop her tummy tightening but is allowed to stop from next week as anytime after that and the doctor said fine if baby was born.
Their house is spotless. I have decided to not let this make me feel inadequate about my own house presentation skills for three reasons...
1. she only has one child and well the crap you have per child seems to escalate million fold per child.
2. her husband is a bit of a neat freak
3. she has an allergy to house dust.
an allergy to house dust.
Fuck me I'd need to be hooked up to an eternal house dust eliminator IV drip.
After our visit we came home and had nap - the ONLY sleep Ryu had all day it turned out.
I had my primary school English - which fucked me off a bit. Mainly because I had been told today's 'shopping' lesson was all mine and so I prepared for it. Handouts so we could practice a simple conversation, some fake money, a bag full of props...
I arrived a bit early to set things up and found the head teacher in the room writing 'his' conversation on the blackboard. His used 'I want' and mine used a carry-on from last week which was 'do you have'
His was a bit easier but it had the sales person saying 'Hello, what do you want?'
Tell you 'what I want' you silly fucker.
He still talks over me and thinks I'm not real teacher. I haven't got a teachers licence I admit, but he can't bloody well speak English and he's the English teacher.
Anyway, bitchin about him wont help anything. Silly wanker.
Came home, sorted dinner, did some washing, fed Ryu and TRIED to get him to sleep but to no avail. Granny K had to actually entertain him while I had my at home English lesson. She complained afterwards that Ryu NEVER sleeps and that I had to stop taking him out in the car for long drives. I had told her that he always sleeps in the car but to be perfectly honest haven't taken him anywhere over about thirty minutes for ages.
But do you know what
When she told me this bit of crap vestling mother in law advice I...
Just nodded and said 'hai'
Is this a sign of maturity?
Too bloody knackered to put up a fight me thinks.
My sister rang this arvo and we had a bit of a catch up. She made me laugh when we were talking about the woes of life and how busy we are. I said that sometimes when things are getting on top of me I look in the mirror and think, fuckin fantastic, on top of everything else I'm a lard ass to boot. Fucks me off something chronic. She agreed but put it more eloquently (??) saying she felt like a bush pig. That is SO what I am. And to prove it...
This afternoon, I was about to set off to the school for English when I noticed that below the bottom of my capri pants was some very hairy calf. I had to change pants in fear that the eleven and twelve year olds would mock me.
Sister said something along lines of having not had nails done, botox, eyebrow wax etc etc for over x number of months. I didn't butt in that I hadn't had my eyebrows done since the night before my wedding - and that was a pluck from a friend so not the real paid for deal. As for botox?? Never been there or done that but might be keen if some vestling in kunimi decided to switch professions from rice and raddish planting. Nails?? I have some good false ones in the cupboard. They say 'active' as their length but the ones I put on back home in NZ last year were hard to get used to even though they were quite short. Maybe will have another go but might at least wait until have something to go to like kindy PTA. I'll be the fat gaijin with the nice nails thank you very much.
Anyhooo, best get to bed. Big day out tomorrow and need to get my strength up for first starbucks in three months.
Might buy another clear blue tomorrow too. Gotta keep someone in business in these tough times after all. In addition to the mask and hand gel people.
Which reminds me - I rang three clinics/hospitals today to ask about oinky flu vaccinations. Got fobbed off by ALL of them. None of them are talking. Nobody knows anything. I think it's all a conspiracy.